Why I'm Proud to be an American

I'm sure many would ask: how could anyone be proud of a country always in turmoil? However, I am proud to be an American, living in the USA, because I see everything and not just the various sources of scandalous and inflammatory news to bring us down and rip us apart as a nation. Yes, I see the fear, despair, destruction and crimes, but I also see dedication, kindness, hope and inspiration. I see the actions of so many who hopefully keep us advancing in technology, without suffering serious resource depletion, while facing our ever expanding needs. People who work diligently in keeping America beautiful.

 

I'm also aware that we've had so many, and are still having many, trying times in America. There are a multitude of things we are not proud of but far more we can be extremely proud of. The majority of what makes this country thrive is the good heart of the people in it. The awesome, beautiful, diverse, everyday American people. People who are heros ... including the unsung heros. Including the ones that determinedly do all they can to set the record straight from all the rampant lies being spread ... as if the truth wasn't bad enough. Doing all they can to promote peace because they know that hate and wars only begets more hate and wars. 

 

In my humble opinion, anyone who cannot see this is living, or being kept, in a narrow-minded world. Maybe a world they choose to live in to feed their misery. Maybe a world they're kept in to feed another's agenda. 

 

For instance, I recently heard about a young lady who moved to America from a European country and was amazed in what she saw. She fell in love with America and said it was nothing like what was being reported back in her native land.

 

My thoughts were that maybe it was an attempt to program people out of a leadership's failure in dealing with their internal problems. The concept of bringing down another country, in the minds of their people, so they are not discouraged within their own. Maybe it would serve them best to not show their discontent through corrupt-power and impotent temper-fits and to better themselves without the need to destroy others. 

 

We could be just as guilty of bias thinking; hypocrites who form negative opinions without living there. Especially if we only view another's country based on what our news reports about them.

 

Think about it. 

 

Maybe it's as Goethe said: a man sees in the world what he carries in his heart. I only wish others could see as I do, that the people in power, who distort the truth, are not their country's people. I have traveled to many countries during my life and still have friends in many of them. I would have to state, from personal observation, that their everyday people are just as awesome as we have here and may just be as unappreciated.

 

I know we are.

 

That's why I love a 1973 editorial by Gordon Sinclair, a Canadian, who voiced his opinion about how the world wrongfully treated Americans. It should be listened to, or read, by everyone who hasn't seen it before. It can be found by doing an internet search: The Americans: A Canadian's Opinion By Gordon Sinclair. 

 

Based on Sinclair's editorial, I feel that certain things are still true today. It's improved in some areas, for instance: countries that offered aid to America after a major national crisis. Even if we may not have accepted every offer, at least the offers were made. This fact gave me hope that we can change ... we can be a caring world.

 

Yet, after listening to many sources for nearly 66 years, regarding the conditions of the world and the USA, some things haven't changed ... the need of certain countries to crush America ... an opponent in their minds ... based on ignorance, hate or jealousy. To subjugate their people with lies, to distort the facts about us, only makes me more proud to be an American.

 

Just as that woman, mentioned above, and possibly others, came to a realization after moving here: we're not all monsters. They saw with their eyes, and felt with their heart, the real truth. Good and bad people are everywhere. I refuse to allow the few bad to outweigh my opinion of the many good in any country. The many countries who offered aid, when we needed it, proves this.

 

Besides, if we're so bad, please explain why so many people flock here in droves to live ... even illegally? Why do we have to spend billions of dollars to send illegals back home, feed them, give them medical care or fight court actions over them? Still eating up our resources while little to no aid is returned from their counties. If this country is so bad, why does this occur? What perverse nature sends people to a bad country to live ... unless it's worse there than here?

 

Of course, this must be the case, isn't that why our ancestors immigrated here? Wanting to leave behind suffering and misery in hopes of a better life?

 

Sadly, I've learned that miserable people tend to bring their misery with them. I've also learned that miserable people want to bring people down to their level. Discontent multiples into hate. Hateful people want others to hate who they hate just to be hating. It's a prime reason we cannot get along within or outside our country and I'll bet other countries feel the same way. 

 

Americans want peace. I can't imagine who wouldn't. We are battered and weary but our HEART keeps beating. An overall kind heart that has forgiven many transgressions as well as loans to countries we've helped.

 

Yes, even if some strings may have been attached.

 

We're a country ... not God.

 

We're not perfect but when called to help, we do better than our best. Even if some may not want to believe it. Even if some say we're interfering. Even if by helping some we make enemies with others. Many help unselfishly ... giving our time and money ... and many times our lives.

 

After all the numerous forms of help this country has given, the feelings that are often shown is not respect ... not loyalty ... not gratitude ... but to turn against us. The same countries, given so much of our resources ... taking away from us what we so sorely need within our country for our people, stab us in the back for our kindness and then have the audacity to say we've robbed them of their resources.

 

Seriously?

 

When has anyone ever seen our streets paved with gold?

 

How many countries have forgiven us of our debts?

 

Yes, we get kicked down, we falter and fall, yet we get back up. Our struggles have been many but we keep surviving. We will continue to survive even with all those knives in our backs. We may continually have people walk through our country to promote discontent, promote anger in those who are easily persuaded, but we will eventually see the ruse and stand strong and proud against it ... pulling those knives out of our backs at the same time.

 

Every time someone tries to kick us down, they make us stronger.

 

When will they get that?!

Zombie Conscience

My oldest daughter and I were discussing people putting their or other people's business on social medias. I told her that maybe it's because most people may feel they have nothing to hide, it's not that big of a deal, or maybe we've become desensitized to so many things, we just don't think about it anymore.

The amount of nudity, profanity and disrespect which is seen and heard today would have shocked the world in my youth but today it's like: nothing new ... move on.

Yes, sharing news is nothing new. In my younger years, we still did it and some of it was called gossip. Just pick up the phone and before long the news was everywhere and sometimes embellished. Hopefully, on social medias, we can see it in writing to make sure it's not hearsay or if it's truthful.

Long ago, "business" could be spread through sewing circles or saloon tales. Gossip, or sharing good or bad news, is not gender based either because everyone does it. Good or bad news, they both traveled fast. It's just faster today and often just as embellished too.

Obviously, telling anyone's "business" must still be important because it's done daily worldwide. We have the news and entertainment media spreading everyone's business. Every time we turn on the news, or buy a magazine, we hear or read about someone's business: private or not. Is this part of our desensitizing?

People are worried about government spying on their personal life, too, but in actuality it's our family and friends that could point fingers faster. "Keep your nose clean and you won't have to worry about it" was a saying I grew up with, and heard often, from my military father.

Maybe people's paranoia over "sharing business" boils down to what my dad also told me when I was younger: "if you're worried about what people are thinking (about what you're saying or doing), then don't say (or do) it."

I believe I understand my dad's reasoning now. It's as if we give people power over us when we do that. Don't get me wrong about any of this, I still care about things but maybe I've toned it down to what's a stronger priority with me and not every little thing as I once did. Desensitized?

I still have a conscience, but I've come to terms with many things. As long as I'm doing what I feel is right for me, as long as I am not doing anything illegal or immoral, as long as I'm not deliberately hurting people, as long as I abide by the Golden Rule, then I shouldn't have concerns about people getting into my business. Unless it's my bedroom or bathroom, or trying to steal what's not lawfully theirs to have. Who knows though? A hundred years from now, at the rate things are going, even that could become desensitized.

Having no-conscience may be a bigger concern. Programming that could effect our eternal soul. The word Zombie comes to mind when I think about having no-conscience. Something that's not new either. Throughout history we've seen immoral and illegal things done by many no-conscience, heartless beings.

Another thing I was raised with was: "only the truth hurts." I may have responded back to my father with: but it's not the truth! In which, he would have calmly replied: "then why do you care what they say, if it's not the truth?"

Maybe that's why we're becoming desensitized to so many things. The "who cares about what people think" attitude. What do we have to hide? Obviously, based on what people say about government spying, not a darn thing. If we're an open book to the government ... any government ... why the concern, fear or paranoia? Unless, as my dad also used to say: "what's the matter, got a guilty conscience?"

It always bothered me when he said that because it made me question myself. Did I? Are people vehemently reacting to privacy invasion because of a guilty conscience? In fact, is our privacy really being invaded or are we overreacting? What's the fuss about getting into another's business that's all over social medias, or the news, but not wanting anyone to get into our own? Seems too hypocritical.

Maybe that's why I share my life as I do today. A somewhat open book, without concern, fear, or paranoia, because I've also learned that feelings aren't always coming from me but can be another's. If people choose to project their business onto me, I will gladly send their feelings back ... with a clear conscience (not to be confused with no-conscience).

Yes, as I said above, the eternal part of me is more concerned about the "Zombie no-conscience" then a guilty or clear one. As the population increases and people seek an end to their means with no heart involved, how many more no-conscience people will be developed because of desensitizing people?

I saw a television show recently about a future, hypothetical virus causing a zombie mind. Well, I have news for them, joke about it or make scary movies, but the virus has been around for eons. Under control, somewhat contained, but for how long? How much longer before this Zombie Virus becomes more virulent, uncontainable, and we stop caring or feeling about everything; including being involved in people's business, including not being concerned about our rights against illegal or immoral activities, or only doing lip service with our activitism?

Look around us. Daily we are seeing the increased "out of control rioting insanity" of our world's "Zombie-looking mania" within our human race. We are also seeing the desensitizing of our emotions everywhere: who cares they're two people screwing on the street corner, that's their business. We see more and more mental disorders ... from minor to extreme. We are being programmed to believe drugs promote cures but some with only an intent to calm the mind. Calm the mania or keep us from thinking?

Will the world's desensitizing programming of a Zombie Conscience become the norm?

Time will tell.

Negotiation

To me, negotiation is a stimulating and challenging mental game between the players ... a true sign of intellectual thinking.

There's no need to be angry or violent, while resolving issues, it only shows a sign of immaturity and an unwillingness to compromise. It makes no sense to see two, supposedly mature, people beating their heads together like wild animals.

Negotiation is similar to a battle but a mental one. No physical force need be displayed or blood spilled ... if you're good at it. Negotiating is preparation, laying one's cards on the table, and having a back up plan to resolve any conflicts. It only takes the willingness to communicate between all parties concerned. 

I learned to negotiate when I was younger. I also learned to accept no as an answer too. That taught me to be flexible and that I couldn't always have things my way. Yes, sometimes you just have to suck it up and move on ... wait for a better time. I've also discovered that people tend to listen more if you present a mature and strong point of view while negotiating. Maybe an offer they can't refuse.

Let me share an example.

I wanted to go back to work when my youngest was nine months old. I was stifling in the house. I liked being around people. I had worked off and on since I was thirteen ... I was 24 at this point in time. Besides, there was only so many soap operas one could tolerate. I wanted to live a life but not through the lives of television actors. My husband (now ex) was working and going to school full time and thought it was best to stay at home.

One day, he came home and I decided to negotiate my cause again but using a different tactic ... other then we needed the money. As he entered the house, I said: I'm going back to work. I either go back to work or I kill you and the kids and burn the house down.

I stood there waiting for his reply with a twinkle in my eyes and a smile on my lips. I wouldn't have done any of those things and I felt he knew it. I was using some comedy/drama to show the change I needed.

Smiling back, his reply was almost immediate. He slowly said: well, since you put it that way, you should go back to work.

Negotiation over without a fuss! I started looking for a job and transportation. We only had one car but that didn't deter me.

Sure, maybe I presented an offer he couldn't refuse, or he just placated me, however, in all seriousness, I knew I had to be fair in my expectations. I knew I had to be prepared to compromise ... that's negotiating. Also, my threat was done humorously. Real threats may be met with returned threats. Don't bring that to any negotiating table.

Eventually, time may change any original negotiation agreement. No problem ... just renegotiate. It's allowed. 

Hmmmm .... wouldn't it be great if we had no youthful bickering, no bullying, no corporate backstabbing, no countries warring within or without ... just to name a few emotional "out-of-control" situations ... but only peaceful, mature negotiations? 

Oh well, wishful thinking on my part. Maybe one day. 

Genesis 1:27

Genesis 1:27 ► So God created mankind in his own image, in the image of God he created them; male and female he created them.

My question then would be, if God created us in "his" image, but created female too, he couldn't have been just a he. Wouldn't that make sense? What image did God actually have back then? It couldn't have been androgynous either because it would be neither male nor female. Maybe it's time to ask?

And in the words of my youngest daughter, when she was about five years old and I told her she looked like daddy (meaning his side of the family), she loudly declares, with tears in her eyes, "but I don't want to look like a man!"

Could that be why genders, etc., were created? We didn't want to look alike anymore? Bored with the same godlike looks? Whatever that was.

Metaphysical Discouragement

With mercury currently retrograde, I thought it was a good time to reflect on confusion and distortion. Over the years, I've seen so much of this in the metaphysical community that it's no wonder why people eventually turn away. It can be discouraging, especially to ones who've been at this as long as I have.

Why haven't people gotten it? Is their density that dark that no light can penetrate it? Or is it due to the lack of unity within? 

You cannot tell people they're being mislead because their ego and "egos" around them, won't allow it. I've dealt with this before, it's not a pretty picture. Many times, I've been asked to intervene or eventually asked to move away if they won't listen to reason. 

I've come to a conclusion that some "karmically" have to learn the hard way.

Also, while listening to videos or reading blogs or comments, I often hear or see "channeled" information based on stuff that's been in movies that I've seen in the past ... maybe they have too and therein may lie the "programming problems" that I see throughout the community. Why didn't they channel this information before a movie or book? Did they? Where's the proof? How do we know that these weren't manifested thoughts of future books or movies "projected" during meditating or through the voices we say we hear?

Did they really see Greys, Reptilians or any other worldy species prior to any subjective thought from the physical world or before they connected to the spirit world and the human channel exploitation began? Or is it an ego that needs to be inflated by being cool ... being able to do what others profess they do ... even if they too aren't doing anything because they too are trying to be cool or somebody special? For instance: look at me, I see (or hear) that stuff too.

Yes, these are thoughts in the universe that I hear ... emotions that I feel. Someone's thinking/feeling them. I'm just channeling them to help you understand what we're up against. 

Historically, it was only spirits, angels or some such being they could relate to, based on cultural upbringing. It could have been the deluded or wild imagination of an artist's mind from centuries ago ... but does this make it a real creature? Today it's like a wildfire of other worldly species being presented. Where were they before? Or were they ever before? 

I'm not saying certain beings exist or not but I know minds can be deceived, especially weak, altered, or innocent ones.

Futhermore, I "sense" so many things that are deliberate lies coming from new age channeling, etc. They know they're lying but don't care. The things they write or say have doubt emitting from them but they don't care. They aren't channeling a universal awareness but a movie that they've been subjected to or from another's regurgitated fantasies ... but they don't care. There are also things they've looked up on the internet and not told by any higher being of light ... but they don't tell you this. These are thoughts that are now within their mind to be played upon. Thoughts to deliberately deceive them as well as others. They don't care because they're jumping on that proverbial bandwagon of placing themselves on a pedestal ... even if it's not facts but their fantasy. 

Yes, there is a difference in emotions. When you ask for truth from the universe, do you want facts or fantasy?

With an untrained ego, deceit can be easily employed. The highly trained ones, who are more on top of their game, can see/feel the veil of deceit being employed. Like any education, it takes time to learn and hone these empathic abilities too ... to sense doubt off the universe and to ask why? 

Even people who say they are empaths have been deceived because they aren't as attuned or tuned out at the time. I know we're all on different learning stages. I can sense that too. Been there myself. However, why do we need to be on guard, with our "internal truth meters," all the time? 

When I recently asked guidance about this, they agreed that's all part of a plan to destroy something good ... it's nothing new ... it's been throughout history. It's all part of a plan to malign unless the one being deceived catches on. There are people being set up to distort the facts, who are willingly duped, to stroke their egos, because they're limited in wisdom as well as knowledge. Nothing new there either. There's many reasons why a lot of people are experiencing so many things, including attacks, and not all are from extraterrestrials ... another ploy to deceive. 

I asked why the good ones aren't doing more about it. This is what they said, which kind of shocked me at first, but after everything I've been through during my life, it eventually made sense ... because I was feeling their emotions as I heard the words and know more was involved.

Guidance: Why do you think we've been doing things the way we do ... nearly covertly?  Don't you understand the power your mind holds and the ruthlessness of those that would and have abused it or would see you dead because of it? If those, who want to destroy you or people like you, believe that you're unbelievable then you're not a threat. The guidance that is being given to this world is like a child learning to walk ... one step at a time ... for protection in many things. We know what you're capable of doing ... we also know what they're capable of doing and have done. You can attest to this ... your body and mind has been severely attacked many times but you're still here due to this protection; even if you can't see it you know it's true. What you see as something holding you back is a fact to some degree ... in order to save your life. There are ruthless physical beings throughout ... mentally unbalanced too. This time period is not merely enlightening village shamans but world advancement which goes astray due to ego. We knew this could occur and we're overseeing it ... protecting who we can and when we can. Remember what we've told you before: you're not any good to anyone if you're not here. Unless you prefer to go out on the streets ranting like a mad woman and get yourself shut away or killed?

Me: Nope. What purpose would that serve?

Guidance: Then continue with what you know and feel is right.

After that, and still feeling a little disappointed in things, I felt like telling everyone I quit or to pass the torch to another, but something within me sensed that wasn't going to happen. I can understand why people who are truly aware become discouraged in dealing with mankind, especially when it's within the "metaphysical community" causing the negativity. 

I also felt it was one reason they started pulling me away from certain things some time ago ... protecting me when all hell breaks loose. I believe this is what saves my mind from all this metaphysical discouragement: I know I have a life outside of that other worldly awareness that keeps me grounded in my reality. 

In the meantime, being persistent and patient as always, I'll keep shining my light: discouraged, scarred and battle weary, but not diminished.

Lay Down the Swords

When I was in my youth, I heard an expression: crossing swords with yourself. It meant you were actually fighting yourself but blaming others.

For instance, you whine that no one likes you but you do everything to make sure no one does. I can't get a date, but you stay home and watch TV. You complain that everyone judges you and you hate them for it, but instead of doing anything to improve the situation, you make it worse.

Do you want people to like you ... not judge you? Do you really want improvement to a current situation?

Then stop fighting with yourself and mean what you say.

Half the battle is won when you realize the problem. The other half is won when you resolve the problem.

Lay down the swords.

What Color is Your Soul?

Maybe, just maybe, when we take pride in ourselves, not based on race or beliefs, this world may be a better place for everyone.

When we remember our soul's journey, we remember that we are not one faith or race.

We remember that we are part of everything and eternal.

Ask yourself then, what color is your soul?

What faith is your soul?

What were you before ... in a long ago past?

What will you be ... in the very far future?

When we understand the answers to those questions, it leads us to wisely ask next: Why are we soul-destructive instead of soul-productive?

The one thing that will continue when the physical part of us stops breathing is our soul/mind.

What are you feeding yours?

Conditions, Conditions, Conditions!

I've always considered myself a realist, so it's no surprise for me to come to a conclusion,  after analysis, that the word unconditional (not limited by conditions) is a word that doesn't make sense. If we look closely enough, everyone or everything has conditions in life.

Conditions (v): have a significant influence on or determine (the manner or outcome of something).

Believe it or not, we can, with our very existence, subconsciously place conditions on the people in our lives: family or friends. These conditions, I feel, creates the ebb and flow of life's relationships.

Even nature has conditions ... think about it. 

However, recently I came across the words used in wartime: unconditional surrender.
After contemplating this phrase, I began to realize that maybe the word "unconditional" could make sense; possibly in the hate or control of another. Those two emotions seem to be more rigid than love should be. Or, am I deluding myself? Maybe "unconditional surrender" has hidden conditions too.

To me, love is yielding. It's not unconditional because it understands conditions are there, yet it bends when needed. You may say that's unconditional but I still see many conditions involved in order to learn ... to evolve.

Hate is unyielding. It has conditions and does not bend. It wants that so-called unconditional surrender. In doing so, it can stagnate learning. It's my way or else. 

However, there can be "my way or else" in a loving home. A parent may want their children to grow up with the conditions of understanding, discipline and order; teaching siblings to get along with one another to insure a peaceful home. All for the right conditions to create a better person.

That's not a selfish love, because there will still be kindness, rewards of good behavior, as well as other acts of caring that will be shown within the home.

The selfish love or hate has none of these. It is uncaring and unkind. It wants to bully into submission. Those are the conditions that are used to do so.

So, you can see why I've had an issue with the word unconditional. Conditions seem to be in so many things ... all part of survival. Yet, it's the type of conditions, along with who's doing it and why, that holds the most importance.

Maybe instead of unconditional love we should be saying altruistic love. The love that is for the good of all not just the one.

Altruistic? Hmmm ... even that suggests conditions. 

Dialogue With An Intolerant Mind

Below is a lengthy and, hopefully, an enlightening blog about a conversation with a Facebook "friend" who not only unfriended me but blocked me afterwards. 

What triggered that reaction? In this blog, I will explain what happened and why. 

I felt something might be going on because, as we were "conversing," guidance suggested I copy everything. I'm glad I did as they suggested because it can be used to show how I deal with judgments and release them too. It is also a way of showing hidden intolerance within some people due to their emotional blocks.

What people show on the surface is not always their true self, as we've seen lately with sociopathic, mass murderers like Elliott Rodger; which I wrote about in one of my previous blogs.

 

Anyway, I thought I was being nice. My emotions, during the discussion, were my usual calm self (almost nonexistent), because I didn't want her to think I was being rude towards her comment. To me that's like being rude in someone's home. Because of it, her final reaction took me by surprise. To unfriend was one thing, but to block too? Strange!

I felt this warranted analysis.

 

Lead in to our conversation ....

 

There was a picture of an African clothing pickup location for homeless people, which she shared on Facebook. She also made a comment that more people in the USA should be doing "similar things" for the homeless, as well as having "food locations" such as a Saudi Arabia man, which is also mentioned in the link below. This link has many ideas in helping the homeless ... even from people in the USA.

 

Here is the website. http://www.oddee.com/item_98957.aspx

 

This left me feeling confused at why so critical of the USA which does many, many things for Americans ... as well as other countries. Why such a narrow opinion when many websites extol the virtues of people in this country (even though others like to bash them too)? Websites that are easy to investigate showing the good Americans do ... in all financial levels.

 

To me, intolerance indicates a feeling that no matter what people do it's never good enough. To keep projecting that type of hate or any negativity onto people may create an attitude: why bother?

 

I felt she wasn't thinking things out thoroughly and I only wanted to present a different side to the subject. As I stated above, many people in the USA (and elsewhere) donate their time, give money as well as many other things they are "called" to do ... for many reasons ... and not just for homeless people. I see tons of pictures on mental or medical issues, child, elderly, spousal or pet abuse, sexual trafficking, rape victims, missing people, murder, corporate abuse, medical malpractice, among other things ... with the constant demands of ... help me help them.

 

I'm more concerned that the influx of these things I see on social medias, will have a reverse reaction and start desensitizing people. My empathy senses they may start feeling overwhelmed with the demands of the world problems and emotionally shut down due to it ... for self preservation ... creating the apathy and complacency she included in one of her comment.

 

Below is the conversation that was started due to the comment on her picture. I directed it towards the food part, at first, due to concerns about food poisoning with unprotected locations. I never mentioned leftovers as a food source but that wasn't the only thing she read wrong because I was addressing her accusation of me of being short sighted and fear driven. She must have felt threaten by something I said to use name calling ... making it a personal attack ... which caught me off guard ... leading me to explain more about my life so she would realize I was aware of hardship.

 

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I wrote: Too many people in the US are afraid of getting sued at the drop of a hat. All that collateral damage that makes us all suffer the laws that are made to "protect the innocent" but hinders us from doing worthy things because of stepping on the toes of the ignorant who cannot see the good that was being perpetuated and sue people instead. It sucks!

 

She wrote: I don't buy it. Not for the majority.

 

I wrote: That's why they have places like church charities and corporations like Salvation Army. To reach wider areas with less repercussions. Putting food out for the homeless could be dangerous. There are wackos out there who could and would poison the food. I wouldn't want to take the chance if I was homeless.

 

She wrote: If I was homeless and starving, I would appreciate everything and anything a person would offer to help. I think your ideas are very short sighted and fear driven. I'm sure there are very creative ways to be able to help others, and no one said it had to be leftover food. I think it's a cop out to put it on the shoulders of organizations. Every individual has the opportunity to help others, if they choose to. Many do not, because of apathy and complacency. It's shameful.

 

I wrote: Considering you haven't walked in my shoes I would say your being very judgmental. I have given my time, money as well as other resources to many people over many years. The universe knows the truth in this. I have never attacked you personally as you just did me. Maybe you should ask yourself why that is because it's confusing to me. I've shared my opinion ... that's all. My insight comes from being observing of human life all my life. Am I leery of all human kindness? No, but I'm aware and intuitive enough to know that not all humans can be trusted. That too is based on my life experiences ... based on knowledge and not fear. I have given much to my family financially; hundreds of dollars in financial support as well as emotional support because that's how I am. Charity begins at home too. I'm not complacent or apathetic ... I choose my battles wisely. Maybe many people do because of people being ripped off due to their kindness being exploited. That too is from personal observation. Guilt tripping ... if that's what you're doing ... tends to make people pull away from doing anything. Many are tired of having a hammer to their heads and being called names because they feel they're doing what they can when they can. 

 

Yes, I would probably eat a roach to stay alive or drink bad water. Since neither of us apparently have been homeless, it's actually an assumption what either of us would do. 

 

She wrote: I have been homeless before. I'm not now.

 

I wrote: I was basing that on your comment ... "if I was homeless." I apologize. No one should be. I have been in dire straights. A single mom taking care of an infant and a brother. I have struggled most of my early life in supporting myself. Being from a large family, I grew up with the bare necessities. No luxuries. I've slept on a floor before because of no bedding. I washed dirty diapers in my tub and line dried them because I had no washer or dryer. I've asked for help and had little to none. Back then they didn't have the support, other than churches, as they do today. I've been proposition by men to keep my job ... turning them down and losing them because of it. Things are better then they used to be in many areas but I feel there's still room for improvement ... everywhere. All in time.

 

She wrote: Life can and is very very hard on many. And for many, all we can do is the best with what we have. But there are some who have not known hardship, and some of them could care less what their fellow man is going through. And especially here in the US, where we pay millions to athletes and celebrities, when there are children whose only meal they receive is at school (if they are lucky), and many families living in their cars (if they are lucky). Now, my comment to you was the "fear driven" portion only. You read the whole comment to be directed toward you, and I was addressing those who are apathetic and complacent. It is my opinion it sounds fearful. Your reaction is based on you feeling attacked or disagreed with. And whatever you perceived from my disagreement and observation, has led you to a frenzied overreaction. And that is ok, and I'm glad you shared everything you did. Because where was the help you needed during all those difficult events you lived through? Where was the support? I'm sorry it was so hard for you, as it is for many in this world. I hope life became better? And if it hasn't, I hope tomorrow it will. There is no competition with trying to live. There is only survival. My hope and dream is that no matter how hard life becomes for many of us, that we still can find the ability to help another who is less fortunate than we. (And this has nothing to do with you). This is only my hope, that's all.

 

I wrote: Thanks ... and, please, I don't want you to think it was a "frenzy overreaction." There was never those emotions involved within me ... ever ... just a minimal explanation of my life for perspective. My life was based on perseverance and, in hindsight, having some good luck to help now and then. I don't look back with self pity but appreciation. It is why I do help, and have help, those who are less fortunate ... including all the free stuff I do for those under telekinesis because I know how that feels too. 

 

If you're being homeless helps you to help others, that is admirable and selfless. I know that not everyone can or will. Maybe one day we won't have to feed the homeless because we won't have them anymore. 

 

I am not into sports because of the money involved. I don't feel supporting that insanity. To me it isn't conducive to logical thinking. Yet, I know that many in that, and the entertainment field, are altruistic. I won't begrudge them of what they do only because I'm doing my best not to judge or covet their goods. It's something I've never done ... harbor ill will over another's worth. I find it more productive to be busy building my own or helping others build theirs. 

Thanks again for sharing your feelings ... clearing the air. :)
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And .... after all that, as well as an apology, thanks for sharing, and smiley face, I was deleted as a friend and blocked. What she failed to understand is, without people contributing to corporations, there wouldn't be corporations doing what they do on the larger scale they can provide. That is still people helping people, via them, and we can still help (volunteer) on other individual basis too ... but to what we are called to do ... not always what others think we should be doing.

 

Yes, there are shady corporations and we have to be careful who we give our time and money to. That's why we investigate first ... to the best of our ability.

 

The website (above), with the homeless ideas that she shared, had the picture of the clothes wall which is in Cape Town, Africa. When she mentioned food, it struck me that not all food donated by an individual may be safe based on our food and drug administration laws. A lot of repercussions could occur that could involve individual lawsuits. Look at how fast people sue companies and individuals today? That's the point I was making in the beginning of why people may shy away from doing things individually because of legal ramifications. The USA has a lot of strict laws to protect us from many things due to past errors being made as well as past psychotic people hurting someone or being hurt: street people killing someone or gangs killing street people. Many who understand these complications, and situations, tend to shy away from certain things that have been known to backfire. I can't tell you how many times I've read about people being deliberately poisoned ... including homeless people. 

My initial comment was in regards to my awareness and seeing hers as being short sighted ... to help raise her awareness. 

 

This is why history repeats itself. People don't tend to investigate situations before jumping head into possible trouble. We are not Saudi Arabia or Africa but we do have churches, shelters, and other places that provide for homeless ... including food donated by people. Let's give credit where credit's due. Many people are doing many things ... the US Post Office even had a recent food drive. If that's not people doing things, what is? I felt she wasn't able to grasp that we have a ton of ways that people are helping in the USA. References that even rich people aren't doing enough is completely untrue and unfair. Many people with money do very altruistic things and this too can be found on the Internet. Billions of dollars are contributed every year by the American people to help many causes.

 

Until one knows another's soul, who really knows what triggers something in another. I actually don't feel I was being unreasonable or antagonistic in sharing my knowledge; which were, as I said before, very low key at the time and certainly not a "frenzy overreaction" much less "fear driven."

 

I felt later that it was the "energy" around her that led her to believe otherwise. I know that kind of thing has happened a few times to people I knew. I also felt the fear and frenzy she felt was her own ... projecting her feelings onto me ... due to her experience of being homeless.

After analysis, I realized she had been cold shouldering me since I made a correction comment on one of her many animal pictures. I had been getting feelings about this every time afterwards, when I hit the like button on any of her comments or pictures, that she was avoiding me. I realized, with this occurrence, that she fits the stereotyping of those who can dish it out but cannot take it. 

I asked guidance if it was her or the energy around her that created this. They suggested that it was of no importance who created it. "She's an adult and she allowed it. She chose not to rise above this. People who choose to be activist should be prepared for constructive criticism and not run away at the slightest differences of opinion, especially when done in good taste and with honest intent."

I have no ill will in any of this. Maybe it's because I've developed a thicker skin over the years due to my experiences. Sharing this is only with the intent on how I release judgments for my peace of mind. If it helps someone else, even better.

One must understand tolerance for others if they want tolerance in return. One must understand that the calling for one may not be the same for others. Let your conscience be your guide to whatever you are called to do and then do it. Keep in mind the Golden Rule when doing so and you'll know you're being guided with good intent.

After all is said and done, my greatest wish for her is that she gains the gift of tolerance to help her along her journey and to know that many people may be called in many directions ... not just hers.

 

Pernicious Path

Pernicious: Having a harmful effect, especially in a gradual or subtle influence.

 

Recently, I posted this word on Facebook with a sentence and a picture about vines being pernicious. This led to some wonderful insight about the vine itself.

 

It actually led away from the word, pernicious, which can be used in many other areas ... as in substance or companion abuse for example (a gradual influence leading to a harmful effect).

 

This made me think of another sentence it has been used in. I wonder what insight I'll get this time because it can be a more touchy subject then vines.

 

2 Peter 2:2: "And many shall follow their (false prophets) pernicious ways; by reason of whom the way of truth shall be evil spoken of."

 

The way of truth?

 

Couldn't all current day faiths be maligning said way of truth through gradual and harmful influences leading us away, instead of to, said way? A deliberate and subtle maligning to dupe us into believing otherwise ... like any addiction would do ... slowly but surely over the ages ... to feed into that ego of false doctrine  instead of the  real "way?"

 

How would we know?

 

Through intuition?

 

What if it's being blocked?

 

Have we been corrupted over time by the false prophets within the churches ... within the faiths ... to create a deceptive way of truth via pernicious teachings?

 

Luke 16:13 "No one can serve two masters. Either you will hate the one and love the other, or you will be devoted to the one and despise the other. You cannot serve both God and money."

 

Can one really have two masters at the same time ... money and doctrine?

 

Could this have led us on a pernicious path away from the "way of truth"?